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BICENTENNIAL

I wanted the fireworks to go on forever — or at least for the rest of the night. It’s the way I feel every Fourth of July — never enough fireworks. But this year, 1976, I was in the Air Force, watching the display from a grassy knoll near the practice tee at Luke Air Force Base, Arizona. Needless to say, those in charge of the show had pretty much pulled out all the stops.

The night sky was dazzling with sound and color and light. Just enough breeze stirred to dissipate the smoke and the smell of black powder.

I was stretched out on a picnic blanket, looking up, perfectly content, when a body landed beside me.

“Having fun yet?” Jeb Dalton, fellow aircraft mechanic trainee and all-around goof ball. There was wafting around him a distinctive, pungent aroma.

“Dal, what the hell have you been smoking? Are you crazy?” I asked. “Don’t get any of that on me. I don’t want to get arrested.”

“You can’t get arrested for the way you smell!” He laughed uproariously.

“Don’t be too sure about that. You’re in the military, remember? Who knows what they can arrest you for. And it might interest you to know that my roommate is around here somewhere, and she hangs out with S.P.s a lot.”

“Gotta run.” Dalton launched himself straight up off the blanket. “See you at work,” he called back as he disappeared.

“Who was that?” Dal’s spot on the blanket was now occupied by my dorm roommate, Lena Fletcher.

“Another crew chief.”

“You work on the flight line?” A new voice. I turned my head. He was sitting on the blanket on the other side of Lena. Nice looking. Dark hair, gray eyes, trim mustache. Something familiar about him.

“This is Chris Miller,” Lena said. “Chris, this is my roommate, A.J. King.”

“Hi,” I said. “Yes, I work on the flight line — Delta section.”

“Ah, F-4s. A guy I went through Basic with works on F-4s — Shawn Mercer — you know him?”

“Sorry, I haven’t met everyone on the flight line yet. Been a little busy dodging jets and the verbal abuse my trainer likes to hurl at me.”

Chris gave me a long look.

“You drive a blue Chevy pickup, don’t you? A new one?”

“Yeah,” I said slowly. Then a light came on. “I know where I’ve seen you. At the gate, right? The civilian clothes threw me.” At the gate meant he was S.P. — Security Police. I was glad Dalton was already gone.

“I know,” he agreed. “I don’t always recognize people when they’re not in their cars. You have Texas plates on that truck. Is that where you’re from?”

“Yeah, Houston. I bought the truck when I was home on leave after tech school. It gave me plenty of room to pack all my junk to move out here. Where are you from?” Standard line of questioning when meeting someone new on base — what’s your first name, what’s your specialty, where are you from.

“Tucson.”

“Wow. You’re a long way from home. What is that, about 120 miles?”

Chris looked down at Lena.

“She always this sarcastic?”

“Oh, she’s not even warmed up, yet,” Lena grinned.

“Sarcastic? Me?” I acted hurt. “That’s a little harsh, don’t you think? I prefer to call it heavy irony, myself.”

Chris laughed.

“Tell me something, both of you,” I said. “Is it just me, or does it seem a bit cliché to be in the military on the 200th anniversary of the first Independence Day?”

They both looked at me like I’d lost my mind.

“What? You mean you haven’t thought about the whole red, white, blue, rah, rah, rah, thing?”

Lena rolled her eyes and shook her head. You’d think she would be used to me after three months of sharing a dorm room.

“I guess I never thought about it quite like that,” she said,

“A.J. why’d you join the Air Force?” Chris asked.

“So I could get out and use the G.I. Bill to pay for college.”

“Not because you wanted to work on jet fighters, or see the world?”

“Being in the Air Force wasn’t the objective. I didn’t really care what job I got. Getting out in four years is the objective. And I’d rather see the world as a civilian.”

“It’s good to have goals,” he said solemnly. I turned to look at him. The corners of his mouth twitched up. Huh. Nice looking and a sense of humor.

The fireworks came to an end in one final dazzling barrage, and everyone cheered. We got up and started shaking the grass and twigs out of Lena’s blanket. I looked around at all the other people doing much the same — gathering up folding chairs and coolers and kids.

“They’ve all come to look for America,” I warbled softly.

Lena looked around at me.

“Is that from a song?”

“Did it not sound like I was singing?”

“Is that what you’d call that?” Chris asked.

“Hey!” He was quick. I’d have to stay on my toes.

“It’s a Simon and Garfunkel song,” Chris told Lena. She looked surprised.

“You listen to Simon and Garfunkel?”

“Sure, I even wear a beret sometimes,” he deadpanned. I threw back my head and laughed. The beret was part of his uniform. I could end up actually liking a law enforcement official.

“Well, that makes up for the crack about my singing.”

I rode back to the dorm with Lena. Chris had gone off in another direction.

“Lena, how come you know so many cops?”

“So many? I know about six, and not all that well. I met Chris first. We went through in-processing and base orientation together, went out to eat a few times. But those guys all change shifts every time the wind changes, so they get off in their own little world. Chris calls now and then, but it’s not like we’re dating or anything.”

“So, do you think someone could get arrested for smelling like pot smoke?”

“I don’t know,” she laughed. “Why?”

“That guy who took off right before you got there — Jeb Dalton. I work with him. He reeked of pot smoke when he came up. I just wondered what would have happened if Chris had got a whiff of him.”

“I think that as long as he’s on base, the cops can search him or his car whenever they feel like it. I guess if he doesn’t actually have any stuff on him or in his car, they’d have to let him go.”

“That would be a hell of a thing, wouldn’t it? To get thrown in jail on Independence Day?” I should have known better than to say anything. Next day S.P.s showed up on the flight line asking questions about everyone who knew Dalton. Me they searched. Seems someone had seen me talking to him at the fireworks show. I wanted to murder Chris Miller. All the rest of the day I ground my teeth over what a low-life he had turned out to be. So what if it was his job. I guess some people are never off-duty.

And there he was, standing in front of my dorm when I got home.

“Thanks, Chris,” I grimaced at him. “I really enjoyed all the attention I got at work today, getting patted down, having to empty my pockets, and letting a couple of ham-handed strangers go through everything in my truck and camper.”

He held out his hands in a conciliatory gesture.

“Your room got searched, too. And I’m sorry. That’s why I came over. I wanted to tell you it wasn’t me. I didn’t really see that guy you were talking to last night. But he was being watched. A.J. he wasn’t just lighting up a doobie in the parking lot. He’s been dealing. Everyone he had contact with had to be checked out.” That caught me flat footed. I had never associated with a drug dealer before — that I was aware of. Well, they say the military is a broadening experience.

At that point, Lena showed up and had to be filled in.

“You remember when we were talking about Jeb Dalton last night and how it would be a bummer to get thrown in jail on Independence Day?”

“Don’t tell me that’s what happened!”

“Oh, that’s only the beginning…” and I proceeded to tell her about my interesting day. “And Chris says our room got tossed,” I finished.

“Not ‘tossed,’ searched.” Chris frowned at me and shook his head. “You might find a few things out of place. Which reminds me of something I heard about. Which one of you keeps a live black widow spider in a jar on the desk?” Lena aimed a dagger finger at me.

“That’s what I figured.”

“I think black widows are among the most beautiful arthropods on the planet,” I said in defense. “Besides, I couldn’t find a tarantula out in the desert.”

“You’re not supposed to have pets in the dorm.”

“Not a pet. Science project. I’m conducting behavioral research.”

“Translation,” Lena added. “She likes to watch it kill crickets.”

Chris rolled his eyes heavenward.

“Now I’ve heard it all,” he said. “Why don’t you two go change and let’s go get pizza? I’ll buy. Unless you have other plans.”

“Those sound like good plans to me,” Lena said with a smile.

“I have to take a shower, first,” I added.

“Call me when you’re ready, then.” Chris turned and headed off toward his dorm, a few blocks away.

It was unsettling to find “a few things out of place,” even though Chris had warned us.

“That was nice of Chris to come all the way over here to tell us about the room,” I said. “Here I was having evil thoughts about him all day because I thought he turned me in.”

When I got out of the shower, Lena called Chris, and we met him in front of the dorm a few minutes later. He drove a black, 1967 Mustang that was so shiny I could see my reflection. I made the mistake of saying “oh-wow-cool-car,” which is the universal signal to the male animal to produce an information overload on the engine specifications, torque, zero-to-sixty times, and all modifications past and present. Lena and I were glassy-eyed by the time we got to the pizza place.

“I’m still in shock about this Jeb Dalton thing,” I said as we were drinking beer and waiting for our pizza. “He seemed like such an ordinary guy, although I knew he liked to party.”

Chris shrugged and said nothing. I guessed he wouldn’t be able to talk about the case whether he knew anything or not. Lena got up to visit the ladies room.

“Chris, can I ask you something? Purely academic curiosity, of course.”

“Okay,” he said, but his smile said, “Uh-oh.”

“I would expect a guy like you to have a girlfriend, but it seems you don’t. Is there someone down in Tucson?”

“There was, for a long time, in fact.” He set his beer down. “There was a girl down the street. We grew up together, went to school together, went to all the games, went to the prom. Then when I went off to Basic Training, she met someone new and got married — wham, just like that. Then I realized she’d always been pretty impulsive — something I’m not. She’d get us into trouble, I’d get us out. That’s why I wanted to be a cop — to help people get out of trouble.

“Anyway, I was with her so long, it was like being married. It’s weird to be single, but I’m not all that anxious to start anything new. I tend to see long term consequences. Like, I look at you — I see major consequences.”

“Gee, thanks,” I said ruefully. Chris shook his head.

“I didn’t say bad. I said major. For instance, I’ve known you 24 hours and you’re in the middle of a criminal investigation.”

“Not my fault.”

“Still. I get the idea stuff happens around you. I’m not saying I won’t come running if you need back-up. But you seem pretty independent — I don’t really expect you to need me to come running.”

“Come running where?” Lena was back.

“I think Chris just volunteered to be my guardian angel.” I smiled wickedly.

“Well, goodness knows you need one,” Lena said. “Chris, I don’t envy you that job.”

“Hey, what’s that supposed to mean?”

“Shut up and eat your pizza, A.J.”

What if…

After a serious rain delay — like all day yesterday — it looks like more of the same today. I’ve decided to borrow a post from another blog I started some time ago and will probably terminate. At least I can get it published and then unplug the computer. Lightning in the area and all that. Borrowed text follows.

On an odd night some time back, when I couldn’t get to sleep, I started playing “what if.”  As in, “what if I hadn’t done so-and-so twenty odd years ago, and instead had done something else.”  It can be a dangerous, habit forming sort of game, and can end up making you unhappy with any decision you’ve ever made and afraid to make new ones.  But anyway.

This particular what if game actually inspired me to get out of bed and write about it.  And here’s the result, more or less.  I’ve done some rearranging to make it more coherent.

“Oh, the Seventies.  The Eagles and Fleetwood Mac.  Desperado, Tequila Sunrise, and Rhiannon.  Heart.  Dreamboat Annie and Magic Man.  The flight line.

“When I joined the Air Force I hoped it would be my path to a future as a zookeeper.  Instead I got distracted chasing guys, chasing the perfect concert, the perfect high, the perfect song.  Every day I took my heart out and broke it against another guy — like cracking an egg against the side of a bowl.  I was out of my mind.  I had no idea what to do with my feelings.

“And I’m carried right back every time I hear Hotel California or New Kid in Town.  There I am again behind the wheel of my pick-up, driving the streets and highways in and around Phoenix.  Sometimes I wish I could go back and do some things differently.  What if I had just said no when Randy said he would come back to Texas with me after we got out?  What if I had just loaded up my truck with my own stuff and got on with my own life — the one I had thought I had all planned out?”

The next day I started writing a novel about a young woman who joins the Air Force with the idea of using the GI Bill to go to college at the end of the four year enlistment.  The idea was that my main character would do things a little differently than I did.  She would still be on her own when she got out of the military, and she would continue her education, keep her eye on the prize rather than get into a relationship where she ended up submerging most of her plans, as I did.

Over the next few months I got several chapters written, and most of them were like little vignettes, with separate little dramas opened and closed in less than 1000 words.  I had never done anything like it before.  But then, I had never sat down and figured out how to use some of the things that actually happened to me to serve as the basis for a story.  Of course I exaggerated the bejabbers out of everything.  Funny thing, though.  It began to be a story about being in the Air Force, working on the flight line, dealing with the guy thing, more than it was about getting out and having the ideal life as a serious scientist — which was kind of what I had started off to do.

For now, the project is on hold.  I lost my momentum when I started working a part time job in late 2007, and I haven’t gotten back into it.  I have to finish it, though.  I hate not finishing something.

Books about writing by someone who knows

Not long ago I re-read William Zinsser’s On Writing Well, a book that was required reading for the writing course I took through Long Ridge Writer’s Group. This time I read with a red pen in hand to underline key passages and fix in my brain the high points of the wealth of knowledge it contains.  Among all the common sense advice, Zinsser mentions another book he wrote – Writing About Your Life.  I went out and bought a copy.  I thought it might help me with my novel, which is kind of a fantasy memoir about my years in the Air Force.  And yes, it will.

I highly recommend Writing About Your Life to anyone who has even the vaguest notion of one day writing a memoir, whether factual or fictional.  For one thing, it is an excellent example of the genre.  Zinsser has some hugely entertaining stories from his own life that he tells to illustrate how to.  Did you know that his great grandfather, William Zinsser, founded a shellac business in Manhattan and that he still sometimes gets calls asking advice about paints, solvents, and shellac?  Or that he wrote the first, long magazine piece introducing a new comic to the public in the early sixties?  The comic was Woody Allen.

A word that shows up in this book more than once, that some of us need to turn into a mantra for our writing life is “permission.”  Give yourself permission to write your own story, as honestly and authentically as only you can.

Since the format of a blog lends itself particularly well to self-revelation, I would also recommend the book to anyone writing or planning a blog. Unless you are going to have one of those blogs where you tell people how to use a digital camera, train for a triathalon, or walk like an Egyptian, chances are you will be writing about the stuff you’ve done and seen in your life. This book has some great tips on how to bring out the humor, the drama, the suspense in your story, and the personalities of the other people you’ve known along the way.

If you are looking for references to add to your library on how to improve your writing, the first book I mentioned is also invaluable. Originally published in 1976, it is now in it’s seventh edition, and is considered a “classic guide to writing nonfiction.”

I know that spontaneity is supposed to be the heart of the blogoshpere, but as more and more people jump in, it will be the well thought out, consistently well written blogs that people will keep coming back to. At least that will be true for people like me. I notice multiple grammar mistakes, multiple spelling errors, and don’t have the patience to wade through those for whatever gems of wisdom they may be masking. I can find better writing about the same subject on another blog. And I will.

There is a third book by William Zinsser that I also recommend. It’s titled Writing to Learn, and it has lessons for anyone who writes anything on any subject for any reason. Need I say more?

What to do with my blog.

Since I’m not going to be going back to work in a full time job soon after all, I need to make a schedule for my blog work.  I think a Monday, Wednesday, Friday posting schedule is pretty reasonable, and I need the structure.  Self-discipline is not one of my long suits.

For now I’m going to make Monday my off-the-wall topic day.  Anything goes.  On Wednesdays I’ll talk about my dogs, or dogs in general, or pets, or back yard wildlife.  Fridays will be art blog day.  I’ll post pictures of the painting or drawing or piece of jewelry that I’m working on, and/or the process of making things (my process, anyway).

At some point, I’m going to have a separate series of biology articles.  I tutor freshman biology students from the local university.  I tried teaching at the local junior college, but discovered that I don’t really have the temperament to deal with a whole roomful of students.  I like the one-on-one dynamic a lot better.  But I still like the idea of teaching, and I love my subject.  Knowledge of basic biology is something a lot of people have been shortchanged on — or they shy away from it for one reason or another.  I’d like to try and see if I can make it less angsty.  I’ll expand on this idea later.

Right now, since it’s Friday, here is a photo of the snow leopard painting that I took a few days ago.  I have been working on it every day, so have made more progress, and maybe by next Friday it will be nearly finished.

starting to come into focus

starting to come into focus

For starters

I have been writing for myself almost as long as I have been able to write.  Sometimes I would let other people read what I wrote, but that’s not why I wrote.  I wrote, and still write, because I don’t talk.

Let me clarify a bit.  I’ll use an example.  I have basenjis.  Basenjis are little African hunting dogs that don’t bark.   Sometimes I’ve told people that and they get this pained look on their faces, like, “oh, those poor dogs.  Why can’t they bark?”  Sometimes they even ask me “Why can’t they bark?” because they don’t listen.  (I’m still talking about the people here.)   I never say “can’t bark.”  “Don’t bark” is entirely different from “can’t bark.”  I think basenjis just have a high “bark threshold.”  They have to be extremely motivated to vocalize in a way that could be described as a bark.   My older basenjis bark like cocker spaniels when they’re waiting for me to put their food bowls on the floor.

I’m the same way.  I’m perfectly capable of running my mouth non-stop until my voice is gone. I’m just very rarely motivated to do so.  As a result, a lot of what I have to say stays unsaid.   Some of it joins other things I haven’t said in my head, and they all have a great party.  Then I write stuff down.

So much of what I was writing down in my youth has been lost because the technology I was using at the time — pen and paper — was prone to getting torn up or tossed out in the various purges I went through while packing up and moving around. Then there was the “new” technology — called a Commodore 64, and things called floppy disks that you can’t put in a current disk drive of any description.

So I’m going to try writing in cyberspace — try letting the party animals in my head come out and play a bit.   From what I’ve seen of blogs and websites lately, my thoughts and I should feel right at home.